[Bushwick, Brooklyn]
Photographic things are about controlling really tiny amounts of light.
[New York Close Up]
A few years ago,
a friend was doing me a favor looking for something in the darkroom,
and I asked her to open some boxes
and one of the boxes was a roll of unexposed paper.
And she says,
"Oh there's nothing in here but this peach-colored mural print."
[Mariah Robertson, Artist]
And I'm like, "It’s not a print! No!"
Suddenly all the keys on the piano being like, "No!"
["Mariah Robertson's Chemical Reactions"]
[4 Years Ago]
I started fiddling around with that paper that was "blown".
Either this paper was gonna go in the trash
or I was going to play with it.
At the end of each workday
I would just sort of douse it with leftover chemicals.
There's always a bit of that, like, chemical mess at the edge of prints
when you're working in a darkroom.
It's just normally considered a flaw
or something that you crop off.
I always enjoy trying to make something out of the unwanted thing
and go deeper into the disaster.
[MATTHEW DIPPLE] You..are you speaking...are you speaking to me through a mask?
[ROBERTSON] I am!
[DIPPLE] Okay.
Yeah, I just called her.
She said she can’t pick up the phone,
[48 Hours Before the Opening]
but she's gonna be done at 3:30.
Things are a little bit delayed today.
It's maybe slower that it would have otherwise been.
[Matthew Dipple, Gallerist]
[ROBERTSON] When you're young, there's nothing to stop you
from always working up to the last minute.
The mental locomotive is really pumping.
Scattered ideas that were all over,
they're suddenly, like, crystallized and form new things.
The language for describing these
either comes from photography or from painting.
But there are no optics involved in making them.
There's no brushing on top of things.
They're just a series of chemical reactions on this one flat piece of paper.
Paper was wet and then I sprayed it
so all these little droplets, like, hit that spray
and then just slid down.
Developer is like black
and fixer is like white,
and when it's just one of them you can...
you know what’s going to happen.
But then as they mix with water in varying strengths of each one,
then things happen.
I can coax them to happen,
but they won't happen on my command.
Slowly there started to be some, like, purple magenta.
There started to be green when the developer was cold
or when the fixer and developer would mix
there would be some yellow and orange.
Sometimes there are areas where I don't know what's happening,
and it makes this lavender-hippie-rainbow-unicorns color.
It's a fleeting mystery.
I go in there with a plan,
but the good ones are ones where they sort of exceed the plan.
I don't even know, like, what's happening on 75% of it,
and then it's done, and I wash it and I'm like, "That's amazing!"
"Who did that!?" [LAUGHS]
[DIPPLE] It's about creating some sort of
educated or controlled chaos
and then seeing what can come from that
and whether it's beautiful or successful or unsuccessful.
And I think she’s very conscious it--
it's not always going to be successful.
[ROBERTSON] No!
It's fine.
No, it's so...
Please don’t touch it!
It's so...don’t...
No, no, it’s fine.
I don’t know how to explain what to do!
[American Contemporary]
[The Bowery, Manhattan]
[LISA] Anything else?
[ROBERTSON] I've got some wood that's all taped up together.
It's so different....
[WOMAN] Matthew Dipple.
[DIPPLE] Hi, very nice to meet you.
She frames them using the frame as a kind of a sculptural element.
[ROBERTSON] I really wanted to work with metallic paper.
But, by the time I got around to
being able to do anything serious with it,
they stopped selling it in sheets,
and it only came on rolls.
And I didn't have a way to cut the paper down
to, like, 16 by 20,
in the dark.
And they were coming out all...
all wacky.
And it took me way too long to realize,
"Oh, I could make this any size I want."
All of the edges became really special.
It seems like in your work
you can express some part of your personality
that you’re maybe not consciously aware of all the time.
Like maybe your better self.
I have heard similar things like,
"They feel free and joyful and positive and optimistic."
And I'm like, "Oh really?"
"'Cause I'm so anxious and like…" [LAUGHS]
"I mean, like, living,"
I’m like, "Whaaaa!,"
like, "That's good that that comes out like that."
I had been thinking I could do a long one,
and then finally it clicked.
I'm like, “Oh just take the whole box,"
"Like, as it is, don’t cut it.”
Like, it’s already been cut at the factory.
It’s already one real long rectangle.
It’s a bit of a technical challenge
to try and process it by hand.
Exposing it is pretty mellow.
But then once the chemistry comes out
you're just stuck doing it.
You've got to go until you process the whole thing.
The long ones that have images,
they start at, like, 15 hours.
The next day is usually devoted to, like, sleeping and crying.
Like... [LAUGHS]
And then, I just didn't quite know how to install it.
It's just so big.
What do you do with it now?
Matthew from the gallery called and said,
"Mariah, would you be willing to sell one of them long pieces to an institution?"
And I'm like,
"What does that mean?"
"Yes. Fine...get the...you know,"
"like, fine, sure, sure.” [LAUGHS]
[Midtown, Manhattan]
He didn't say who it was.
If he had, I would have said, "Give them for free." [LAUGHS]
"Give them three of them. Please."
I remember, as a kid, I'd get one-hour photos done
and I would throw the negatives away because they were meaningless to me,
and my grandmother would keep those.
I had no idea.
I'm like, "What are these little like orange things? Yuck!"
"I want this 4 by 6 picture."
And it feels so powerful when you have a photograph in your hand,
like, this will last forever.
I have this piece of time in my hand.
I have control over it.
There's a lot of information you can have on that paper,
but it's also very delicate.
Like, its ability to record is also its vulnerability to damage.
When those long pieces are done and when they're beautiful,
there are so many tiny chemical reactions--
chance things that are coming together that can never be replicated.
And it's all on one big vulnerable thing,
and then it's just installed, out for the air,
in the least safe way possible,
over those, like, trapeze bars.
[Roxana Marcoci, Senior Curator]
Roxana Marcoci said something really good, looking at it.
She said, "We try to control everything but we can't."
It reminded me that that's what this is about.
All your attempts are going to fail at controlling life,
so you should let that go so you can actually see what's happening.